It’s now 5:49 pm and I’ve failed to do much of anything that was on my to-do list. And as much as the fearful, scarcity part of me kept trying to force something out of me — I knew not to.
But it was more than a knowing … I trusted myself enough to wait.
You see, I knew that I would show up and do the work before my head hit the pillow tonight.
I trusted myself enough to know that I would get done what needed to get done.
I trusted myself enough to create the space and to follow my intuition.
I trusted myself enough not to give in to the worry thoughts my brain kept throwing out throughout the day of having to do X, trying to convince me why I should do Y.
It’s funny how some days it’s like fireworks are going off as soon as I open my eyes and I get everything done by 8am and other days not so much.
The other day was a fireworks kinda day. I had gone to bed at 2am and still got up at 4am. Some people – perhaps a lot of people – would roll their eyes and argue that one shouldn’t push themselves this way. And although I agree that making this the “norm” isn’t healthy (I’m 1000% on taking care of ourselves), what I will say is that when you’re on a mission, when you are aligned and purpose-driven, getting up only after 2 hours of sleep won’t feel like pushing at all.
I did my morning ritual, created a ridiculous amount of content, connected with people, had an impromptu phone interview for a dream job, worked out and ate healthily … No naps needed (although I do love me a good nap).
Do I wish all my days were like that? (minus the 2 hours sleep part) Heck yeah!
But the reality is that some days I’m vibe-ing at a level 10 and other days I’m squeaking by at a level 2.8.
But regardless of how I’m feeling, I know that I’m going to do the things that move my business forward because:
1. The things I do fuel me.
2. I’ve strengthened my discipline and continue to do so.
In the past, I thought that pushing and forcing myself to do things was just part of the hustle. I would set goals and then try to push my way to them and when you’re pushing from a place that isn’t aligned, it feels like you’re constantly forcing yourself to do things just to get to the end result. And at the end of the day, instead of feeling fulfilled, you feel a little more depleted. This fed my belief that this is what you have to do if you want to make the money, have the body, build the business. And it felt like each day it would get a little harder and harder to get back in the ring.
What I’ve discovered is that hustling when you ARE aligned has a VERY different energy to it. Don’t get me wrong, there’s still “pushing” that occurs but the pushing is more about pushing through patterns, behaviours and beliefs. Pushing boundaries and limits. And instead of feeling depleted, you’re left feeling a sense of accomplishment and fulfilment.
So, do you see why it’s so important to be clear on who you are and what fuels your soul? Because when it comes to building your discipline and self-belief/trust muscle, it makes it a helluva lot easier to break a pattern/behaviour/addiction when you’re aligned with the person you’re becoming and you believe in what you’re doing. It feeds you. It energizes you and you begin to look forward to whoopin’ your own butt because of how it’ll make you feel afterwards.
That’s the difference being aligned makes.
That’s the difference being on purpose makes.
That’s the difference self-belief makes.
When you do something because you think it’s what will give you your end result …. boy-oh-boy, you’re going to have your work cut out for you.